It seems I am really really pissed off this week…
I have a referral to see an ENT surgeon in a couple of weeks.
For convenience the GP didn’t write that I have fibromyalgia ‘in case he doesn’t believe in it’
So he put down that I have high blood pressure and cholesterol instead.
WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK?
Not even getting in to the fact that I have LOW blood pressure and my cholesterol is finethankyouverymuchforasking, and I am on those meds to stop another stroke, HEY HOW ABOUT WE PUT THAT DOWN HUH?
But in case he doesn’t believe in it?
Are you out of your mind?
I have a myriad of symptoms that are impacting on my life, these symptoms have been clumped together, agreed upon and given a name for ease of explanation, and called fibromyalgia. I didn’t make it up. I didn’t give it the name. I just went in with pain and wouldn’t leave until someone told me how to fix it.
I don’t give a flying fuck what this dude believes in, there is a fucking REASON I am on mega doses of a fucking seizure medication and it is not for the shits and giggles.
(fo shizzle. No shits. No giggles. This fucker is potent. 600mg of Lyrica a day.)
Back when Boo was diagnosed with Autism there were doctors that didn’t believe in it. True Facts. I had doctors and specialists tell me he just didn’t want to talk, it was a behaviour thing, it was because his father was ETHNIC.
I am living groundhog day.
And anyway, why does it matter if this bloke is living in the dark ages? He is a fucking ear nose and throat surgeon. I am going to see him about inflamed fucking adenoids, not my propensity to fall asleep at inconvenient times or the screaming pain in my feet.
How about we give the fucker a heads up in case his head is not up his arse and he actually has to perform surgery? He may want to know in advance about my brain farts and mega doses of painkillers that you conveniently forgot to mention in the referral.
In case he doesn’t believe in it.
The same thing happened when I got the referral to the rheumatologist and the endocrinologist. ‘Please to be seeing Kelley, she has nothing wrong with her’.
I don’t get it. If it is so taboo, so controversial, give me another diagnosis. ANY fucking diagnosis, I don’t care. Just something you can all agree on so I can go and get fixed without all the secret handshakes and coded messages.