Trying desperately to fall asleep but my brain wont switch off from the ‘what if’s’ and ‘remember this” and ’20 years ago you said something stupid’s’
Resolve to not look at the clock again after 12am.
A text message at 2am. What the actual fuck?
MPS not in bed. Wander out to find him playing with the ringtones on his phone.
Boo up, lights on, drink of water secured.
MPS in bed. MIDDLE of the bed. Heavy leg pinning down my thigh.
Boo up again, more lights, goes to the toilet.
MPS snoring. And grabby. Fight him off.
Think nice thoughts. Think NO thoughts. Go to sleep.
Toss and turn.
Boo up again. Wandering around but goes back to his room.
Every light in the house on but just too tired to do anything about it.
Sleep. OMG SLEEP…
Light streaming from the open bathroom door.
Right in my face.
Alarm goes off.
Fuck you Daylight Savings
and your dog too.