Apparently this is the correct quote. I prefer jump. I am a maverick.
I don’t know where I got the quote from.
Pinterest? Someones blog? Random google search for the meaning of life?
Regardless, I saw it, wrote it down and chucked that shit up on my fridge to remind me.
Or placate me.
Or to try and lull me in to a false sense of security that everything is going to be OK.
And trust that the net will catch my fall.
I don’t like taking chances, to wander into the unknown. As this blog is testament to, the Universe likes hide behind the curtains mainlining laxatives ready to defecate on my head at any given moment.
Right now I need to make a decision.
Do I return to work and all that it entails, knowing that it will be stressful and demanding and not to mention the logistics of getting Boo where he needs to be and keeping him home at a moments notice, being indebted to my mother and the abuse that THAT will bring as I have no other backup for Boo wrangling, and the possibility that returning to that lifestyle – with the extra stressors – may induce stroke number 3?
Do I quit my job and be poor forever, knowing that no other workplace will ever allow me to work around Boo’s needs. My superannuation being decimated by fees and charges and unless I come into a fuck load of money I will never own a home again?
Let alone an ipad?
Do I beg my workplace for another six months off, cap in hand admitting that yes, the promises made when I applied the first time did not eventuate but it is not my fault and come off as a whiney child who won’t take responsibility?
Do I bury my head in the sand and pretend none of this is happening and go and buy myself an ipad with the rent money to make me happy?
There is no guarantee that I will stroke out again.
There is no guarantee that I wont.
There is no guarantee that taking another six months will give me enough time to fix the damage caused by the fuckwit principal last year and the incompetent co-ordinator this year.
There is no guarantee that I CAN do anything.
There is no guarantee that anything will happen any way that we plan.
There is just a choice.
To make the best decision with what you have in front of you right now.
And believe the net will appear.