My workmate died today.
The ‘new mail’ icon popped up on my screen while I was in the middle of something.
Annoyed at the intrusion I clicked it away.
Check it later.
‘Sad news’ was the title of the email.
‘we understand the circumstances were not suspicious’
So carefully worded.
Lawyerese we call it.
She died today.
Maybe it could have been prevented.
I stood at the coffee machine and stared at the wall.
The wall that she lent against while we chatted waiting our turn.
Talking about nothing.
Only three days ago.
I guess I see them now.
Hindsight and all.
But what does it fucking matter now?
She died today
and she will never know how much she will be missed.