What if something happened that changed you.
To your very core.
That the mere mention, in passing, of something vaguely related
would cause moisture to form in the corners of your eyes
your throat to contstrict
your heart to stop and then pound like you had run a marathon
a marathon to get away from this feeling
That will never go away no matter how much you will it.
And no matter what life throws your way, illness, redundancy, disappointment, dreams and hopes dashed.
will ever make you feel and react like that Big Bad Thing does.
That thing that you can’t speak of
that those that know have moved on from
and are baffled that you can’t do the same.
That Big Bad Thing.
That leaves you helpless and bleeding inside.
you can never ever move on
and this is the new normal.
Feeling like this.
Dreaming like this.
Eyes leaking like this.
What if it never gets better?
And everyone leaves you behind
cause you are living in the past
that is forever present because what made you, YOU, is no longer and you have no idea what to be now.
this is it.
Can you accept it?