So last time I whined I was all ‘woe is me my work fucking sucks and I hate them all and I wish I never had to go back’
And the universe was hiding behind the curtains cackling its fucking head off.
Cause it seems that a solution has been reached.
But in the worst possible way imaginable.
Boo has lost ALL of his funding for school.
From the highest level that you can get without being on a respirator, to nothing.
Fuck the fuck off.
To say I am fucking HYSTERICAL is an understatement. I am at the point where hysterical people are all Giiiiiiiiirl, you need to CALM THE HELL DOWN you are stressing me out.
I need to find the person that made this decision and calmly ask them to explain to me HOW a child who is essentially functioning at the level of a 4 year old, who cannot bathe, dry or dress himself properly, who is incapable of having a conversation, crossing the street safely distinguishing between what is food and what is motherfucking WOOD/OLD CHEWING GUM/BLUTACK/PLASTIC, who has to be constantly supervised not only for his own protection but for others cause he has no spacial awareness and at almost 6ft tall and over 100kgs would CRUSH someone if he just dropped to the floor as he is often want to do.
I want them to explain to me HOW all of his behavioural issues, his OCD, his Hyperlexia, mean NOTHING.
I want them to explain how they can ensure he will get an appropriate education when NO ONE will take him without funding. And if they do we all know he will be expelled within a week.
Or wander off. Into traffic.
I want them to explain to me how he will learn when without constant redirection he will choose to spend his days flapping his arms and reciting movie scripts in the corner.
I want them to explain to me how a classroom can function like that, how other kids can learn in that environment, how the TEACHER will be able to cope with a man mountain grunting in the corner while they are trying to teach.
I want them to explain to me how he will get from classroom to classroom and know where to be and what to take when for the last 8 years he has a shadow with him helping him every single step of the way.
I want them to explain WHAT IS THE FUCKING POINT of integration if when it is the most important – in the teenage years – Boo is just tossed aside and his peers will not get to know the awesomeness that lies beneath ‘that weird guy that hits himself in the head and shoulders when he is excited and pulls his shirt over his head’.
I want them to explain to me WHY it has taken so long for them to tell us. WHY was everyone elses funding notified weeks ago and we have been waiting.
I want them to explain why ONE OF THEIR STAFF is currently working with Boo ONE ON ONE as a consultant to teach him life skills.
I want them to explain to me how my friends son who has more social skills and language than Boo is allowed to go full time to a specialist school and Boo is not.
I want to know what they think will happen to him once all the supports are removed.
I want to know what will happen to ME.
I want them to explain to me WHERE THE FUCK THEIR BRAIN IS.
I want to know who fucked up and whose arse I need to kick.
I WILL go to the media if I have to (although I am loathe to do it, and thankyou everyone that has emailed and sent reporters my way. Hold onto that for me, I need to try some other avenues first.)
But first I am in information gathering mode.
While MPS fights the epic battle for his brothers estate from a money hungry lying bitch so we can fund private aiding till the Education Dept gets their heads out of the arses and realise that denying funding to Boo is denying not only him an education but that of his fellow classmates and turning his teachers into glorified babysitters.
This is so beyond fucked up, I guess right now the saying ‘what doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger’ is more than apt.
I need a fucking miracle.